All characters in this story are mine and are not to be used without my permission, with the exception of Aiheu and RohÕkash, who belong to John Burkitt and David Morris, and Scar, Zira, Sarabi, Mufasa, Sarafina, Simba, Nala, Kovu, and Kiara, who are copyrighted to Disney. The Heaven/Hell/Purgatory system is mine, too.
Dead!
Arrival of the Delegates
ÒHowÕs time?Ó The words were hazy, distorted. But he knew those were the words.
ÒItÕs stopped.Ó
ÒYouÕre sure we have all of it? It would be a mess if we were to end up with a bit missing. Like the pound of flesh closest to his heart.Ó
ÒWe think itÕs all there.Ó A third voice. And darkness. He could feel nothing.
ÒAlright then.Ó First voice. ÒLetÕs get started.Ó
ÒSir.Ó
ÒWhat?Ó
ÒThought you might find this amusing.Ó
ÒIs—is that the heart?Ó
ÒYes, sir.Ó
Chuckling. ÒIÕll be. A black heart. So much for imagery.Ó
ÒYes, sir. IÕm going to put it in now.Ó
ÒHowÕs the mind?Ó More voices.
ÒWeÕre working. ItÕs . . . complex.Ó More voices.
ÒThey manage to put the whole world together, but they canÕt piece together this. I canÕt believe this.Ó So difficult to make out.
ÒItÕs detail work. They canÕt just snap him back together. Look at the mess of how we collected him.Ó Voices, voices. So hazy. And such long pauses between the little conversations.
ÒThat should just about do it for the body. Muscle tissues there. Skeletal frameworkÕs there. Mixing . . .Ó
ÒStop.Ó The first voice. Authoritative, commanding.
ÒSir?Ó
ÒFur. The pelt.Ó
ÒHere, sir. ItÕs a bit of a rush-job. Might be a few hairs out of place.Ó
ÒItÕs . . . wrong.Ó
ÒHow, sir.Ó
ÒIÕm not sure . . . Maybe the arch. I wish we had an omniscio.Ó
ÒCanÕt risk it, sir.Ó
ÒI know.Ó
ÒHowÕs time?Ó
ÒStill stopped.Ó
ÒCompletely stopped. ItÕs a first.Ó
ÒThis is a first. Hey, howÕs the mind?Ó No longer the first voice. Less distorted than it, but still hazy.
ÒItÕs coming. Nearly there. ItÕs so complex. It was bad enough putting together that brain, but this . . . IÕd almost swear he was conscious.Ó
ÒItÕs flipped.Ó
ÒSir?Ó
ÒItÕs flipped. ItÕs all flipped. The body is the mirror opposite of what it should be.Ó
ÒWell, IÕll be . . . I think . . . Yes, this is there, and thatÕs here. Thank you, sir.Ó
ÒIÕm mixing organs and bones. . . . Adding muscle. . . . And now the pelt. . . .Ó
A sigh of relief came from multiple voices.
ÒThe bonds,Ó snapped the first voice. ÒNow.Ó
ÒYessir. ItÕs done.Ó
ÒHowÕs time?Ó
ÒStill stopped.Ó
ÒHowÕs the mind?Ó
ÒWeÕre sifting through now. Trying to get a set timeframe. ItÕs rearranging itself. But itÕs . . . illogical.Ó
ÒThe mind is doing that?Ó
ÒYessir.Ó
ÒIs that—normal?Ó
ÒSir, weÕre just as much of an idiot as you when it comes to this. No offense, sir.Ó
ÒNone taken.Ó
ÒWhat if we put in the brain?Ó
ÒPut it in?Ó
ÒYes. You could still work on the mind, right?Ó
ÒIÕm . . . not sure. Most likely. It might even help. Give the mind a comfortable place, you know.Ó
ÒAlright. Putting it in . . .Ó
ÒCareful.Ó Less distorted.
ÒEasy.Ó Still less.
Breathing. Heavy breathing. Stress-filled breathing.
And feeling.
Feeling. The feeling in his body. His body. His. His. His.
He?
I.
Me.
My mind.
My self.
My consciousness.
Name. Nafsi. Nafsi. Me.
ÒItÕs in. Connecting nerves.Ó Barely hazy.
Pain!
ÒWhat was that?Ó
ÒHeÕs moving.Ó
ÒTime?Ó Panicked.
ÒStill stopped.Ó Alarmed.
ÒIt isnÕt right!Ó
Pain!!
ÒHeÕs unconscious!Ó
ÒItÕs coming together! The mind is completely rearranging itself! No logical pattern! Oh, gods, what did we do?Ó
Straining to move. Pinned. Pinned by something. My legs will not move. And so much pain! If only I was free . . .
ÒI canÕt stop it! The mind is completely out of control! No logic at all!Õ
ÒItÕs logical to him.Ó A faint whisper from the first voice.
ÒIs he . . . are the bonds straining?Ó
Pain!!!
Nafsi yelled as he gave a massive heave. His legs snapped free. He turned onto his stomach, standing up.
ÒHeÕs loose!Ó
ÒThose bonds were triple-sealed!Ó
Nafsi took steps backward from the voices. He couldnÕt see their owners. He suddenly fell, falling only a few feet. ÒWhat—what are you doing? WhatÕs happening?Ó He walked into a leg.
ÒSir, calm down.Ó
ÒWhatÕs going on?!Ó
ÒSir—Ó The leg tried to wrap around him, grabbing him. Nafsi lashed out at it with his claws, not seeing the claws extended by black matter, slicing through the leg around him. He didnÕt see the legÕs owner recoil in pain, screaming.
ÒMy leg! Oh, gods my leg! Aiheu! Aiheu! AHHH! Oh, my leg! Oh, Aiheu!Ó
ÒNafsi!Ó It was the first voice. ÒNafsi, listen to me.Ó
ÒWhatÕs happening?Ó Nafsi said. ÒWhere are you?Ó An endless black abyss.
ÒNafsi, listen to my voice. Listen. Who am I?Ó
ÒA—Aka? Akasare?Ó
ÒYouÕre dead, Nafsi. Dead.Ó
ÒI—IÕm dead?Ó
ÒYes. YouÕve died. WeÕre saving you.Ó
ÒI canÕt see. I canÕt see anything.Ó
ÒThey havenÕt attached your brain to your eyes yet.Ó
ÒThey what?Ó
ÒNafsi, listen to me. Trust me. We need to finish this operation. We need to finish the rebuilding.Ó
ÒThe what?Ó
ÒJust let me pick you up and put you back on the table. We need to reapply the bonds. TheyÕre for your own good.Ó
ÒI donÕt understand.Ó
ÒIÕll explain. But we need to finish this first.Ó
ÒAka—Aka, I think IÕm scared.Ó
ÒIt wouldnÕt surprise me. Please, Nafsi. We want to finish. It will be better. Just let me pick you up.Ó
ÒOkay.Ó He felt himself being lifted by the scruff of the neck, then set down on his back. His legs were pushed above his head and below his posterior. He couldnÕt move them again.
ÒDonÕt struggle.Ó A pause. ÒClose your eyes, too.Ó
ÒHowÕs time?Ó asked a voice.
ÒMercifully stopped.Ó
ÒAka—Ó
ÒQuiet, Nafsi. Patience. Proceed.Ó
ÒYessir.Ó
ÒThe mind?Ó
ÒItÕs done. Must have been completed some time when we werenÕt looking. ItÕs all inside.Ó
ÒConnecting the last of his nerves.Ó
ÒThe killswitch,Ó said Aka.
ÒSir, I really think we shouldnÕt—Ó
ÒNo. We shouldnÕt. But I guarantee that weÕll want it later. That heÕll want it.Ó
ÒSir, IÕm going to have to respectfully disobey—Ó
ÒDonÕt give me that.Ó
ÒSir, itÕs a killswitch. If anyone found out—Ó
ÒThen we wonÕt tell anyone.Ó
ÒSir, IÕm with her. We were told explicitly to put him back together exactly the way he was. The orders came from the gods them—Ó
ÒI know the orders; I was the one who brought up the issue. Now put in that killswitch.Ó
ÒSir, theyÕre right. And a killswitch . . . thatÕs utterly tyrannical. A killswitch is completely distrustful, and it violates every ethical standard I know of—Ó
ÒYes. Preach ethics to him.Ó
ÒSir, we refuse to put in the killswitch. HeÕd never need one.Ó
ÒAnd if he lives?Ó
ÒSir, that never happens. Not to anyone.Ó
ÒA lot of things are happening now that never happened.Ó
ÒSir, we refuse. WeÕre decided.Ó
ÒIt would be merciful.Ó
ÒIt would be leverage we shouldnÕt have. No, sir.Ó
ÒFine.Ó Bitter, angry. ÒFine! Leave! Get out! The job is finished!Ó
ÒYessir. . . . Sir, weÕll have to report this behavior to the gods.Ó
ÒGo ahead.Ó A pause. ÒAzl, stay.Ó
ÒYessir.Ó
A long pause. ÒNafsi,Ó said Aka gently, Òyou can open your eyes.Ó
Nafsi did so. He thought they still didnÕt work. He saw complete white. He turned onto his stomach, his legs free. ÒAka?Ó
ÒOver here.Ó
Nafsi turned to see Akasare sitting, a golden aura around him. And at his side was a—thing. A mishmash of animals. The creature had the head of a leopard, then the mane and forelegs of a lion, the forelegs connected to a cheetahÕs body, with the hind legs of some striped animal, the stripes continuing down the tail. The creature stared at Nafsi, not knowing what to make of him.
ÒAka,Ó asked Nafsi, ÒwhatÕs that?Ó
ÒThatÕs Azl. A malaiki. One of several that were in here.Ó Akasare shot Azl a look. Azl just cocked his head to the side slightly, as if to say, What was I supposed to do? ÒAnd theyÕre very, very stubborn.Ó
Azl smiled.
ÒAka—Ó
ÒNafsi, IÕm not Akasare. IÕm Taraju. Or did he ever tell you about me?Ó
ÒBut he said you were trapped. For good.Ó
ÒAnd I nearly was.Ó He stared at Nafsi uncertainly. ÒNafsi, I may not be Akasare, but I still want you to trust me.Ó
ÒWhy did you say you were Aka?Ó
ÒWould you have gotten back on that table any other way?Ó
Nafsi looked down at what he was standing on. It was a large pedestal, a white pedestal, barely distinguishable from the absolute white of the place he was in. He continued to look around.
ÒI just want to help you, Nafsi.Ó There was a large pool of blood on the floor, a leg in the center of it. ÒI want to be your friend, Nafsi. I already asked you once. About a year and a half ago. I donÕt know if you remember—Ó
ÒI remember everything. Everything.Ó He turned around to look at Taraju and Azl.
ÒEverything?Ó asked Taraju, a slight note of skepticism in his voice.
ÒEverything. Since the day I was born.Ó He cast a quick glance around the place again. ÒWhere am I?Ó
ÒJust a room, sir,Ó said Azl. ÒThey put your pieces in here. It was a mess putting you back together.Ó
ÒMy—pieces?Ó
ÒYou—well . . .Ó Taraju looked at Azl for an explanation.
ÒYou died differently, sir,Ó said Azl. ÒMost animals just come, all as one. You came to us in a million little pieces. We had to stop time to get all of them before they were gone forever. We had to keep it stopped while we put you together. I assume you wouldnÕt like to be torn apart, sir?Ó asked Azl, grinning. ÒAgain?Ó
ÒTime stopped?Ó asked Nafsi.
ÒYes,Ó said Taraju.
ÒThen how can we be talking?Ó
ÒLiving time, Nafsi. YouÕre dead now. Time never slows down here. Just for those whoÕre alive.Ó
ÒDead,Ó said Nafsi quietly. Completely dead. He remembered destroying the pool, or rather, the pool flowing into him. Was that how it would have ended anyway? Maybe he couldnÕt control all of that evil, and it had killed him. Or maybe he couldnÕt have all of that power in that little body. He felt stronger than he ever had before; the pain that the pool had flooded him with now coursed through him, pain no longer, but vast, untapped power. It felt wonderful.
He decided that must have been it, that his body had shattered due to the sudden influx of power; you could only stuff so much into a container before it broke. But they had put him back now, and had unknowingly given him the capacity to hold it.
His mind flicked through the line of reasoning, his intelligence having not suffered at all from death. Dead. Everything would be different now. Would he even grow up? Or was he stuck in his body, complete with intelligence and power that far outstripped it?
ÒHow long have I been dead?Ó
ÒAbout—what, three, four days, Azl?Ó
ÒYes, sir. On our time. An hour in the land of the living.Ó
Nafsi stared at the ground. ÒI didnÕt mean to die . . .Ó It had been so painful. His body falling apart into little pieces, the churning of his insides as the pool tried to house itself . . .
ÒNot too many animals do, sir,Ó said Azl with a smile.
ÒNafsi—Ó began Taraju.
ÒWill I grow up now?Ó
ÒWell, I suppose you could if you wanted. ItÕs what most cubs do after they die.Ó
Nafsi blinked. Was he a cub anymore? Nearly four years had gone by. Was he judged by his body or his mind? Even his mind had never been a cubÕs. He had never been considered a normal cub by any stretch of the imagination.
He looked up at Taraju and Azl, finally tearing his gaze from the surface of the pedestal. ÒWill it—hurt?Ó
ÒSir?Ó
ÒGrowing up. IÕve always been told how painful it would be.Ó
ÒNafsi, I . . . I really donÕt know if youÕll grow up like you were—built to,Ó said Taraju. ÒWe donÕt know that much about you.Ó
ÒThen what are you going to do to me?Ó A thought struck him. ÒWill I go to Hell?Ó
ÒI hope not, Nafsi. I really hope not.Ó
ÒWhat do you mean?Ó
Taraju paused before answering. ÒI can tell you later. But I need to take you to your family now.Ó
Nafsi was confused. There were so many things that he didnÕt understand here. Questions didnÕt seem to get him any further. This Taraju seemed to know so little. If he wanted to help, he could give me information. And he had lied to Nafsi. He had said he was someone he wasnÕt. And he seemed to expect Nafsi to give him and these creatures—these malaiki—his total trust.
ÒMy family?Ó
ÒYes. TheyÕre all waiting to see you?Ó A rectangle suddenly appeared, golden savannah seen inside it. ÒJust walk through there.Ó
ÒIf I donÕt?Ó Nafsi asked compulsively.
ÒThen you can stay here, I suppose.Ó
ÒNo, sir,Ó said Azl. ÒNot here. HeÕd have to be moved from this room. WeÕve got a room waiting for him. But we want to get rid of this one.Ó He turned to Nafsi. ÒWe can send you to the other room now, sir. But I would advise seeing your family first.Ó
ÒWhy?Ó asked Nafsi.
ÒWell, theyÕve never seen you before, sir.Ó
Nafsi paused, thinking. He didnÕt seem to detect any ill will in the malaiki, or in Taraju. Maybe hey did want to help him. He jumped off the table without a word and walked through the rectangle. He found himself in a savannah, a wonderful savannah. It was even more beautiful than home had been. Taraju and Azl followed him, the rectangle disappearing behind them. He heard murmuring behind him and turned around to look between Azl and Taraju.
There were several lions behind him, some standing, some sitting. He recognized one of them. His great-grandmother, Kiara. Next to her stood a muscular lion with a black mane and a scar across his left eye. There was another lion that looked like a weaker, thinner version of the first lion, almost as if it was the same lion, but hadnÕt bothered with muscle. There were two more lions, both with red manes, a lioness at each of their sides both lionesses with blue eyes. Nafsi knew no one but Kiara.
The group stared at him, slight surprise on their faces. The surprise faded into smiled. ÒHello, Nafsi,Ó a lioness said. Nafsi said nothing, simply looking at them. He could tell they were related, at least from the looks. But he was a stranger. He looked like none of them, knew none of them. ÒWe—uh, weÕre happy to see you,Ó the lioness said.
ÒWho are you?Ó asked Nafsi quietly, asking for much more than they could be expected to give.
Smiles that had been slipping lighted across faces again. ÒOf course,Ó said Taraju, stepping next to Nafsi. ÒWe all know you, but you donÕt know us. Well, thatÕs Kiara—you know her—and the lion next to her is Kovu, and thatÕs Scar—Ó the weaker black-maned lion nodded—Òand thereÕs Mufasa and his mate Sarabi—Ó a red-maned lion, his jaw large and his stature impressive, and his mate, her pelt tinged with gray, nodded—Òand the last two are their son Simba and his mate Nala.Ó The last red lion and the blue-eyed lioness next to him nodded. ÒAnd IÕm Taraju, and . . . well, thereÕs Fujo, but heÕs not here right now.Ó There was a pause, Nafsi still staring. ÒSo, weÕre your family.Ó
ÒI donÕt know you,Ó said Nafsi quietly.
Well, thatÕs to be expected. YouÕll get to know us better later—Ó
ÒYouÕre not my family.Ó
There was a stunned silence. ÒNafsi,Ó said Sarabi quietly, Òyou may not know us, but I guarantee we are your family.Ó
ÒNo. I donÕt know you. YouÕre not my family.Ó
After a moment, what Nafsi was saying finally rolled over them. ÒIÕm sure that we can get to know each other—Ó began Nala.
ÒShe hated me,Ó said Nafsi, pointing at Kiara with a little paw.
ÒNafsi, I didnÕt—Ó started Kiara.
ÒYou hated me. You despised me. I saw the way you looked at me. You never liked me, not from the start. You stared at me and thought ÔOh gods what is that thing.Õ You never felt any compassion for me. Never.Ó
ÒNafsi, I made a mistake,Ó said Kiara. ÒI shouldnÕt have treated like I did. IÕm sorry. Really.Ó
Nafsi simply stared back. He had dealt with others like her before she died, and had to deal with them after she was gone, too. They had never changed. And them, the others—she called them family. Why should they be any different?
Nafsi knew he was making broad generalizations, one thing he prided himself on avoiding. But maybe dying had stressed him out, just a little bit. Maybe they had put him back together wrong. Maybe, maybe, maybe. He needed to think, think someplace quiet.
ÒWhereÕs Mom and Dad?Ó
A still silence descended on the group for a moment. Azl finally broke it by saying, ÒTheyÕre in Purgatory, sir.Ó
ÒPurgatory?Ó
ÒYes, sir. For being punished.Ó
ÒFor what?Ó
ÒFor what they did in life.Ó
Nafsi didnÕt understand. ÒBy whose standard?Ó
ÒIÕm sorry, sir?Ó
ÒWho said they should be punished?Ó
ÒI—IÕm not sure, sir. They did awful things. Anyone could see that.Ó
More thinking was needed. ÒCan I see them?Ó
ÒIÕm not sure, sir. I think you could.Ó
ÒNafsi,Ó said Taraju gently, Òare you sure you want to see them?Ó
Nafsi looked up at him. ÒTheyÕre my parents. ShouldnÕt I want to?Ó
ÒAfter all they did to you, you still feel—Ó
ÒYou know nothing about what I feel!Ó said Nafsi with sudden anger.
Taraju swallowed nervously. He didnÕt know how Nafsi would react. ÒI didnÕt mean it that way. ItÕs just . . . itÕs not quite normal to—Ó
ÒIÕm not normal.Ó
ÒThere was silence again. ÒSir,Ó said Azl, ÒI can try to take you to your parents. Whenever you want to go.Ó
ÒFine,Ó said Nafsi. ÒLetÕs go.Ó A rectangle opened that Azl started toward. Nafsi followed him, then stopped when he heard a quiet voice.
ÒMaybe . . . when you get back we could go somewhere . . . and get to know each other.Ó
Nafsi looked at the speaker. It had been Nala. The lioness seemed so nice, so worried about his response. She felt something for him. Nafsi wondered if it was that emotion. Love.
He didnÕt know. He did know, however, that his grandmother had taught him manners to be used with others that were, at least, decent to him. ÒI think I could do that, maÕam,Ó he said. He turned and walked through the rectangle.
ÒDonÕt forget, sir,Ó reminded Azl, Òyou need to—Ó
Ò—to report to the gods. I know,Ó said Taraju. He watched Azl follow Nafsi through the rectangle before turning back to Nala. ÒHeÕs not coming back, Grandma.Ó
ÒNot coming back? What do you mean?Ó asked Kovu.
ÒHeÕs to be placed under quarantine. No one in, no one out.Ó
ÒBut—why?Ó asked Sarabi
ÒI canÕt say,Ó said Taraju. He opened up a white rectangle. A malaiki was seen through the portal.
ÒYou canÕt say?Ó asked Kiara, her voice hurt.
ÒNo.Ó
ÒWhy not?Ó asked Simba.
Taraju sighed. ÒLook, how many times have I, or even the gods, withheld something from you? From anyone? Please, just let this drop. DonÕt make this harder for me than it is. I have enough worries on my back as it is without having your disappointment added.Ó
ÒTaraju—Ó
ÒDonÕt ask me again. Or IÕll go to the gods and ask them for an order of silence.Ó
There was uneasy shifting. An order of silence was given to those who possessed information they shouldnÕt. If the animal breached the topic, they were immediately sent into unconsciousness. Taraju didnÕt need one; they all knew that. But if he was that unwilling to let something slip . . .
ÒTaraju, heÕs our family,Ó said Mufasa. ÒWe canÕt just pretend like heÕs not there.Ó
ÒYou did for the past four years.Ó
ÒWe didnÕt know,Ó protested Mufasa.
ÒEven I can visit Zira,Ó pointed out Scar.
ÒI know,Ó said Taraju sadly. He walked to the rectangle, stopping before he went through. ÒIf itÕs any consolation, youÕll know when the surprise comes.Ó He walked through, trying to shake the conversation from his mind. There were several malaiki on the other side of the rectangle, all of them having been in the room where they had pieced together Nafsi. The gods sat at the far end of the room, waiting for his explanation of his behavior.
Fela would be amused, he reflected idly.
Mano would be furious.
The room was dark, Nafsi reflected. Almost like a cave. The walks of the place seemed to ooze despair. A malaiki sat up from his prone position with a yawn. ÒSorry about that, sir.Ó
ÒAbout what?Ó
ÒLaziness on duty. Negligent of me, sir.Ó An object opened, hundreds of flat, white rectangles bound together by a clear, thicker rectangle that enveloped three sides of the stack of thin, white rectangles. ÒSo, whoÕre you visiting?Ó
Nafsi hesitated a moment before saying, ÒMy parents.Ó
The malaiki gave Nafsi a warm, consoling smile. ÒIÕm sorry to hear that, sir. But I need their names.Ó
ÒJadi and Uchu.Ó Nafsi turned to see the speaker. Azl had come into the room, the rectangle vanishing behind him.
The malaiki looked down at Nafsi in surprise and alarm, swallowing. ÒAzl sir, is this—Ó
ÒYes. And he wants to see his parents.Ó
ÒAzl sir . . .Ó
ÒHis parents.Ó
ÒAzl sir, only one may be allowed in at a time.Ó
ÒVery well. Nafsi, which one?Ó
ÒAzl sir,Ó interrupted the malaiki, Òonly Uchu is ready.Ó
ÒNafsi, which one?Ó repeated Azl.
ÒBut Azl sir—Ó
Azl turned to fix the malaiki with a cold glare. ÒMalaiki, you are disobeying. Is there a reason why?Ó
ÒAzl sir, heÕs—Ó
ÒA good reason.Ó
ÒNo, Azl sir.Ó The embarrassment was plainly in the malaikiÕs voice.
ÒYou are to report to your superiors immediately after you are done with him.Ó
ÒYes, Azl sir.Ó
ÒNow Nafsi, which one?Ó
Nafsi had been thinking. ÒI—I guess Mom first,Ó he said.
ÒNafsi, IÕm sorry,Ó said Azl gently, but we only have time for one. We can try the other later. But only one now.Ó
ÒWell, MomÕs ready now, right?Ó
ÒYe-es. I suppose so.Ó
ÒMom.Ó
ÒVery well.Ó Azl turned to the malaiki. A portal opened to a place even darker than the room Nafsi was in. The malaiki and his rectangular object simply vanished. Azl said to Nafsi quietly, ÒJust ask for me when youÕre done.Ó He, too, vanished.
NafsiÕs gaze shifted back to the rectangle. After a few seconds, a lioness Nafsi didnÕt recognize at all slipped through uncertainly. Her eyes swept across the room, landing quickly on Nafsi. She stared at him for a moment in disbelief. ÒNafsi?Ó she asked quietly.
ÒWho are you?Ó he asked, his head tilted to the side.
ÒNafsi—Nafsi, itÕs me. Your mother. Uchu.Ó
ÒYou donÕt look anything like her.Ó
ÒNafsi, itÕs me. It really is.Ó He stared at her, trying to find some kind of similarity. She walked toward him, stopping when she got to the half-way point of the room as her nose ran into an invisible barrier. She stepped back, looking for what had stopped her. She held out a paw, having it press against the barrier. She stared at her paw forlornly. ÒNo . . .Ó
ÒMy mother is black,Ó said Nafsi. ÒNot tan. Not green-eyed.Ó
ÒNafsi, itÕs me. This is my body. Mine, not the poolÕs.Ó She stared at him, swallowing. ÒYou donÕt believe me, do you?Ó Nafsi hesitated. ÒPlease, believe me, Nafsi. I know IÕm me. I know it.Ó
ÒTell me something,Ó said Nafsi. ÒSomething only Uchu would know.Ó
She stared in his direction, trying to remember. ÒYou . . . youÕre my son.Ó
ÒIf youÕre Uchu.Ó
ÒYes,Ó she said quietly. ÒIÕm me. Those are my memories. Memories . . . you made things.Ó
ÒThe entire kingdom knew that.Ó
She closed her eyes and brought her paw down from the barrier as she hung her head. ÒI donÕt know. Nafsi, I donÕt know. I donÕt remember.Ó Tears began to escape her eyes. ÒI donÕt remember. YouÕre my son, Nafsi. My son. I know youÕre my son.Ó
ÒI donÕt.Ó He didnÕt mean to be cruel. But he refused to be tricked. She looked nothing like Uchu. She most definitely didnÕt talk like Uchu.
ÒPlease,Ó she begged. ÒYou have to believe me.Ó
ÒTry names,Ó he suggested.
ÒNames,Ó she whispered. ÒNames.Ó She stared at the ground for quite some time. ÒI donÕt remember!Ó she cried. ÒI donÕt remember. Nothing. ThreeÕs nothing. ThereÕs—thereÕs Jadi. ThatÕs a name.Ó She looked back up at Nafsi. ÒThatÕs a name.Ó
ÒHe was my father.Ó
ÒYes,Ó she said, staring at the ground again. ÒYes, he was king.Ó She looked up at Nafsi. ÒAnd I was a loyal member of his pride, wasnÕt I?Ó
Nafsi stared at her. ÒYou were queen.Ó
ÒQueen?Ó she repeated. He face contorted as a fresh set of ears came about. ÒItÕs not there!Ó She pounded a paw on the ground angrily, tears falling. ÒItÕs not there. None of itÕs there.Ó She slumped to the ground, weeping.
Nafsi stared at her. Pity was an emotion beyond him, something that he could not feel, due to the lioness in front of him. Who the lioness in front of him claimed to be. She looked nothing like the Uchu he remembered, nor acted like her. Uchu was dignified; she would never allow herself to sink to this.
But Nafsi felt curiosity. He went to the lioness, next to her, and did something he remembered his grandmother doing as he wept to her. He went to the lioness and ran the backside of his paw under her eye, wiping away a tear, whispering to her, ÒShh.Ó
The lioness grabbed Nafsi, alarming him. He calmed down as he realized it was a hug. He could feel her tears wetting his body. He remembered something his mother had been able to do to animals, something that was cause enough for any animal to be scared. She could look into their heads and shift their emotions to absolute, unwavering loyalty to her. He had never tried it. He tried to look in, reaching for her mind—
—and found it was blocked.
Not blocked from him, but blocked from her. Barriers had been set in place, locking away memories, only giving just enough room to retain identity, along with tantalizing clues on paths that could no longer lead anywhere. Nafsi was surprised at the cruelty. The lioness didnÕt know—wouldnÕt know—who she was, and was left to wonder even about her sanity, driving her insane in the process.
Nafsi didnÕt understand. They were punishing Uchu—he knew now it was Uchu—for the things she had done. What had she done? Killed? Made one animal realized where his loyalty should have lied? She had acted on impulse, doing as she wished.
Is that reason enough to punish someone? Not like this at least. Surely not like this.
Without hesitation, Nafsi snapped the barriers in his motherÕs mind.
Immediately the hug was changed to a hold, simply a grip on him, lacking any warmth. The breathing became controlled, though it changed slower than the grip had changed. Uchu sat up, her mouth open slightly in shock. ÒI canÕt believe I was actually doing that,Ó she said, revulsion in her voice. She hurriedly wiped away tears from her face, disgusted. ÒTo make a fool of myself like that—Ó
ÒIt was only you and me, Mother,Ó said Nafsi quietly.
ÒAnd a fine example to be setting for you,Ó she said. ÒWhy did you even come to me? Out of pity?Ó She spat the last word.
ÒI wanted to talk to you. So I fixed you.Ó
ÒHow nice. And nice isnÕt something I taught you.Ó
ÒYou werenÕt my mother,Ó said Nafsi coldly. ÒI wanted to talk to you.Ó
Uchu smiled. ÒNow greed is better. I thought I would never be whole again,Ó she said bitterly.
ÒI think the punishment is unjust.Ó
ÒDamn right it is. Oh, Nafsi, you wouldnÕt believe the atrocities theyÕve done to me. It tried killing me once. My—thing. Whatever that goddamned hybrid is.Ó
ÒI think itÕs a malaiki.Ó
ÒIt killed me, just once. And then it began to take away my mind. My memories. Just sitting there, like stone, staring at me, watching my try to figure out who I was, watching me try to find something definite. Uchu, mother of Nafsi. All I knew. And to believe I begged that scum to help me. I will never get that taste out of my mouth.Ó
ÒYou begged?Ó asked Nafsi.
ÒShe begged. I was never there. Until now. And I never plan to go back. Escape is right here.Ó Uchu looked around the dark room with hope, then down at Nafsi. ÒFree me, my son. IÕm not ashamed to beg from you, if thatÕs what you wish. But free me.Ó
ÒI donÕt know how, Mother. IÕve only been awake maybe an hour.Ó
UchuÕs eyes widened. ÒI—IÕve only been in there for any hour?Ó
ÒI hadnÕt been awake for three or four days, they tell me. And time in the living world has stopped.Ó
ÒThree or four days?Ó whispered Uchu. ÒAnd no time had passed? At all? Nafsi—Nafsi, you have to get me out of here. I have a sentence, Nafsi. One million years. I wonÕt last, Nafsi. Not if this was just a few days.Ó
ÒI canÕt help you, Mother.Ó
ÒNafsi, please. I canÕt go back in there. TheyÕll start all over again.Ó
Nafsi stared at her thoughtfully. ÒI think this is called irony.Ó
ÒWhat?Ó
ÒYou never wanted me to show compassion, but now . . .Ó
ÒNafsi, this is different. Please, just get me out of here.Ó
ÒAnd you said there were no exceptions to be made, either.Ó
ÒDonÕt you want to help me? IÕm your mother, Nafsi.Ó
ÒYou stripped away any pity I had. The least you could have done was to take the loneliness away, too.Ó
ÒYou—you feel loneliness?Ó
ÒYes,Ó said Nafsi bitterly. ÒAnd here, in this Heaven, it eats away at me worse than it ever has. You have no idea how alone I am now.Ó
ÒItÕs not possible.Ó
ÒI do. And I wanted to talk to you about it.Ó
ÒYou hate me for it. And you want me in there. Is that it?Ó
ÒThe punishment is unjust. IÕve told you I canÕt get you out of there.Ó
Uchu walked a distance away impatiently. ÒAnd you make no denial that you hate me.Ó
ÒNot you. I donÕt hate you.Ó
ÒOh, so you love me then? Like any good little cub should love his mother?Ó asked Uchu sarcastically.
ÒYou hollowed that emotion out perfectly well. I have the coldest heart you can imagine. So I hope youÕre happy. Whatever happy is.Ó
ÒYou have pleasure.Ó
ÒI have pleasure. I have pleased. I have amused. I do not have happy.Ó
ÒAnd what do you need it for? To spend your life in pursuit of happiness? There is no such thing as Ôtrue happiness.Õ Happiness has no place in a word where you are king, other than where it is happiness of pleasing you.Ó
ÒKing? What, do you expect me to overthrow the gods and make a kingdom of Heaven? IÕm sure Afriti would appreciate that.Ó
ÒIf he exists.Ó She sat down again, next to Nafsi. ÒSo why are you dead? Did I mess up your immortality as well? Along with mine?Ó
ÒI killed you.Ó
ÒYou what?!Ó she hissed, livid.
ÒI wanted to help my friends. You showed no indication of being one.Ó
ÒYou didnÕt need friends! You donÕt need friends! You have no equal, you can—Ó
ÒThen why did the loneliness go away with grandma? Why, at the very end of my life, did I die with—relief?Ó
ÒYour grandmother was—and, thanks to your efforts, still is—a stupid, ignorant fool.Ó
Uchu gasped as she was suddenly wrestled to the ground by black matter that sprang from the ground to enclose her. Nafsi walked to her head and tilted her chin up with his little paw so she looked him in the eye.
ÒYou will not insult Grandma in that way. You may have punished her, but you will not insult her. Not when I was alive, and certainly not now that IÕm dead.Ó He studied her eyes. ÒYouÕre afraid of me.Ó He turned away, releasing her.
ÒYesÓ she said defiantly. ÒWith every reason to be. No one knows more about you than me.Ó
ÒNo one knows more about what I should be than you. You donÕt know me at all.Ó
ÒYou are a cold, heartless animal, concerned only with yourself.Ó
ÒI wonÕt deny it. I killed you because I wanted to reward GrandmaÕs loyalty. I did it because I wanted it, not because she wanted it. I wanted my friends to be rewarded. It would please me. You would have been dead long ago if I killed you just because she wanted it. You ceased to be of any use to me so long ago.Ó
ÒThen why didnÕt you kill me? Or is this more disobedience?Ó
ÒLike you wanted me to obey.Ó
ÒI wanted you to be great! I wanted to make you the greatest ruler the world had ever seen!Ó
ÒI could have been. I know that.Ó
ÒSo you threw it all away. All because you were lonely. WhatÕs next? Fear?Ó
ÒI can feel that, too. And IÕve only felt it once.Ó
ÒEncouraging. Although I canÕt see what use it is, as you wonÕt free me.Ó
ÒI canÕt free you. I would. The punishment is unjust.Ó
ÒSo what do you want now, O Great Nafsi?Ó
ÒI wanted to see you. And let you know how you failed. And I want you to fix me.Ó
ÒFix you?Ó Uchu asked bitingly.
ÒFix me. Make me how you wanted me to be. Take away the loneliness. IÕm tired of feeling the pain. I thought you would listen to me now.Ó
ÒI have no power anymore,Ó said Uchu bitterly.
Nafsi blinked as he stared at the ground in thought. ÒI took it.Ó
ÒThen that explains plenty. Fix yourself.Ó She looked at him curiously. ÒYou canÕt, can you?Ó
ÒNo.Ó
ÒYouÕre afraid youÕll change, that youÕll forget your friends, that you wonÕt want them anymore.Ó
Nafsi looked away from her. ÒYes. And no. I want to make them happy, but . . .Ó
ÒAnd you are stuck in deadlock. DidnÕt you enjoy that crater you made? Slaughtering all of those animals?Ó
ÒMore than you can imagine.Ó
ÒYou could feel that whenever you wished. Kill whenever you pleased. If only you had no loneliness. You wouldnÕt want friends. You wouldnÕt have to worry about pleasing them to make new friends.Ó
ÒI donÕt know how to alter myself anyway. Besides, I doubt the gods would let me kill as I wished.Ó
ÒAnd what if they couldnÕt stop you? What if you were stronger?Ó
ÒI doubt it. TheyÕre gods.Ó He spoke into the air. ÒAzl.Ó
Azl appeared next to him. ÒYes, sir?Ó he asked.
ÒI want to go back. To Nala.Ó
ÒYes, sir.Ó A rectangle appeared behind Uchu, the same black rectangle that had disappeared earlier. ÒThrough there, maÕam.Ó
Uchu glared up at Azl. She spat at him, hitting Azl just below the eye, before sulkily going back to her prison. Nafsi looked up at Azl. After Uchu had left and the rectangle had disappeared, he wiped the spit away with a paw. ÒSir, through there.Ó He gestured at a white rectangle, one that Nafsi had seen before. Where he first had been.
ÒThis isnÕt back,Ó he said coldly.
ÒSir, IÕm sorry. I canÕt send you back.Ó
ÒYouÕre scared of me.Ó
ÒOf what you might do to me for this, yes. Sir, please, IÕm just following orders. We have to—station you for an uncertain period of time. IÕll say it now: you might as well be imprisoned. No visitors, no one but a malaiki guard.Ó
ÒWhy?Ó asked Nafsi coldly.
ÒBecause AfritiÕs coming. And we donÕt want any sign of—ill will.Ó
ÒWhy would he come? This is Heaven.Ó
ÒAfriti wants you. Your power. We didnÕt know if you would keep it or not. But you did. And Afriti was ready to come as soon as it was known you were dead. AfritiÕs coming now that youÕre—together again.Ó
ÒWho is Afriti? AiheuÕs enemy?Ó
ÒUm . . . yes thatÕs as god a way to put it without going into detail.Ó
ÒAnd you want to put me in here for safekeeping.Ó
Azl thought it over. ÒPretty much, sir.Ó
ÒAnd if I say no?Ó
ÒI try to persuade you. Nicely.Ó
ÒAnd if I resist?Ó
ÒThen I become very, very scared, sir. I donÕt know how many it would take to put you in there. Please, sir, donÕt let it come to that. I personally guarantee no harm will come to you in there.Ó
ÒNafsi stared at him. ÒFine.Ó He walked into the white room, Azl staying on the other side.
ÒIf you want anything, sir, just ask the guard. ItÕll be there shortly.Ó The rectangle winked out of existence. Azl sighed with relief. He was afraid Nafsi would turn on him. He liked his limbs right where they were, unlike that poor malaiki in the operating room. Who knew how long itÕd take to re-grow half a leg?
Azl pushed the thoughts out of his mind, chiding himself for losing focus. He needed to see the gods immediately. He opened a rectangle, hoping the recent changes to everything didnÕt affect the godsÕ ÒdonÕt maim the messengerÓ policy.
Rahimu would be amused, he reflected idly.
Mano would be pulling out his mane.
The looks the malaiki gave Taraju werenÕt ÒOh, are you in for itÓ looks. Although he most certainly was. As soon as he stepped through he heard, ÒIlemi, come here.Ó He unconsciously swallowed as he walked toward the semicircle where the gods sat, all of them. It was a rather large semicircle.
His pawsteps made barely any sound as he walked into the semicircle. There was no doubt that his intentions had been—and still were—good. But good intentions werenÕt what was needed right now, especially not intentions like that. They needed good actions. Taraju sat down in the semicircle, giving a respectful ÒHere, sir,Ó to the lion that called him.
ÒI suppose you know why you are here,Ó said the lion, Aiheu, coldly.
ÒI think so, sir. But perhaps you could clarify it for me.Ó
Mutters went through the assemblage, Taraju hearing variations of the word Òinsubordination.Ó ÒThe reason we are here,Ó said Mano, his voice rising above the murmur, Òis to address your behavior during NafsiÕs—restoration.Ó
ÒI did my job well, sir,Ó said Taraju proudly. ÒI even managed to assist the malaiki on several—Ó
ÒYou overstepped your bounds!Ó thundered Mano. ÒA killswitch?!Ó
ÒSir, would you permit me to explain myself?Ó asked Taraju politely.
Before Mano could answer, a female hyena, RohÕkash, cut him off. ÒPlease do,Ó she said, her harsh voice even more so than usual.
ÒThank you, maÕam. Sirs, I believe Nafsi should be returned to the land of the living.Ó Angry voices broke out, shouting things such as ÒNever!Ó ÒThis has never been done!Ó ÒAgainst everything—Ó Taraju waited for the silence to return. ÒHe has died far ahead of his time. And you know how he is literally an emotional cripple.Ó There was more muttering, cut off abruptly by a roar from Aiheu. ÒShouldnÕt he be allowed to live a full life?Ó asked Taraju.
ÒPlenty of animals have had less life than they should have,Ó said a gazelle angrily. ÒAnd they stay here. He is no different.Ó
ÒThey have a family, or at least someone close. Who does he have?Ó
ÒHe has family,Ó spoke up a wild dog. ÒYouÕre his great-uncle, of all things. And you say he has no family?Ó
ÒHe doesnÕt have anyone he feels he can turn to. Do you know what thatÕs like? To be alone? Utterly alone? I was manipulated my entire life. I went through things I would wish on no one, and yet I was never alone. And then I was tossed in Purgatory. And do you know what hurt most? The hopelessness. The knowledge that I was alone, and no one would be coming to save me. If you believe—Ó
ÒWe didnÕt come here to listen to speeches,Ó said an elephant testily. ÒWe came here to deal with his disobedience and be done with it.Ó
ÒWe are giving him the opportunity to speak,Ó said a tigress, Fela, calmly. ÒAnd I really would like to hear him out. WouldnÕt you?Ó
ÒThank you maÕam. Sirs, what IÕm trying to say is—is that I believe Nafsi deserves a second chance at living. But living immortally would be a terrible thing. Watching your friends die, your mate die. A killswitch would be the kindest thing.Ó
ÒWhat would he care about mates?Ó asked a cheetah angrily. ÒYou saw what happened in the Pridelands. He massacred countless animals because he was angry! Angry!Ó
ÒThe point is not whether or not Nafsi will get a second chance,Ó yelled Mano over the cheetah. ÒThe point is that Ilemi disobeyed explicit orders! Do you have any idea what Afriti would think if it was known we put a killswitch in Nafsi?Ó
ÒNo, sir,Ó said Taraju respectfully.
ÒCan you imagine what would happen if Nafsi was here in Heaven and we decided to use that killswitch?Ó
ÒI . . . IÕm guessing he would—Ó
ÒShatter! Completely! And we wouldnÕt be putting the pieces back together again!Ó
ÒWith all due respect, sir, this has come and gone. We canÕt put one in now. ShouldnÕt we drop the matter?Ó
Mano opened his mouth to retort angrily, but Aiheu waved him quiet. He said coldly, ÒThe issue is that you disobeyed us. And on this matter, of all things.Ó
ÒSir, with all due respect, IÕm a lion. Not a malaiki.Ó
Angry mutters sounded through the gods. ÒYou are not a god, either,Ó said Aiheu. ÒYou are not given the privileges a god has. You were expected to obey us expressly on this. You are, after all, an Illuminati. You are to be an example.Ó
ÒSir, as an Illuminati, I cannot do other than I think is right.Ó
ÒWhat is right in our eyes is not right in AfritiÕs,Ó said Fela.
Taraju was struck by the statement, partly because it came from Fela, who was generally one of his protectors, someone who stood by him. But he knew she was simply stating the obvious that had been skirted around the entire conversation. What struck him was what was implied.
ÒAfritiÕs coming here,Ó he said, his voice unconsciously going to a whisper.
ÒYes,Ó said Aiheu. ÒHere.Ó
ÒBut sir,Ó said Taraju in a normal voice, ÒI thought—a neutral territory, or—or something—Ó
ÒAfriti is coming home,Ó said Aiheu firmly.
ÒSir, are you sure thatÕs the best idea?Ó
ÒNafsi is here, under our control. Afriti will be coming here as well. We welcome any chance to have our brethren here.Ó
ÒSir—Ó
ÒSir!Ó Taraju and the gods turned to see Azl behind Taraju.
ÒI assume you have a reason for bursting in like this,Ó said Mano sternly.
ÒSir,Ó said Azl, taking a place next to Taraju, Òthe rules donÕt apply for him.Ó
ÒWho?Ó
ÒNafsi. The rules. They donÕt apply to him.Ó
ÒWhat are you talking about, Azl?Ó Rahimu asked.
ÒIn the visiting room, with his mother—he walked right through the barrier.Ó
ÒI beg your pardon?Ó asked Aiheu over more muttering.
ÒRight through it, sir. Like it wasnÕt even there. And threw his mother to the ground. He has all his powers, sir.Ó
ÒHow is that possible?Ó asked a hippopotamus.
ÒI donÕt know, sir,Ó said Azl. ÒIt may have happened when we restored him. It was—difficult. But we donÕt know how difficult it is normally. HeÕs the only one weÕve had.Ó
ÒThis will only make it worse,Ó muttered RohÕkash. ÒAfriti will only want him more.Ó
ÒWe knew this could happen,Ó said Aiheu. ÒIt was the only reason Afriti decided to come. Afriti wanted Nafsi to have his powers.Ó
ÒWhere is he?Ó asked Mano to Azl.
ÒHeÕs in his waiting room, sir. With a guard.Ó
ÒHow did you manage to get him in there?Ó asked a cheetah, dreading the answer.
ÒHe just went, maÕam.Ó
ÒHe went?Ó asked an antelope. ÒQuietly?Ó
ÒYes, sir. I just explained it, and he went. Without a fuss. He seems to want to be told whatÕs going on, but thatÕs it. He just wants to know.Ó
ÒYou understand how difficult this is to believe,Ó said Aiheu.
ÒI canÕt lie, sir,Ó said Azl unhappily.
ÒWe know that. But still, itÕs quite a bit to swallow.Ó
ÒAiheu,Ó said Rahimu, Òif Nafsi still has all of his power—Ó
Ò—then the war may be closer than we thought.Ó
Taraju walked toward his brother sadly. Afriti was coming to Heaven to get the one animal that most likely would give Hell enough strength to destroy all the gods. And Taraju was required to carry that load on his back and not tell anyone of what was happening. He needed a laugh. But his brother wouldnÕt give him that, he knew. Fujo was throwing a hissy fit.
Taraju saw his brother lying on the grass, absentmindedly twirling a digit on a forepaw in an omniscio. An animal could see any part in the entire world through that water. FujoÕs swirling had the pictures in the water constantly changing. It finally stopped as Fujo took his paw out of the water and stared into it intently. He looked up as his brother approached. A wide, insincere grin spread across his face.
ÒWell, look who it is. His majesty has decided to grace us with his presence.Ó
ÒFujo—Ó began Taraju with a voice of long suffering.
ÒShall I bow to his great Ileminess?Ó
ÒFujo—Ó
ÒWhat may I do for you? Kiss your paws, get your food? I donÕt know what to do; IÕm so unworthy to be in the presence of the great Illuminati Ilemi—Ó
ÒYou didnÕt go to see Nafsi.Ó
ÒWhoÕs Nafsi? Oh, yes, that animal you claim to be my grandson, but IÕve never even seen!Ó
ÒFujo, I had no control over that,Ó said Taraju patiently.
ÒOh, but couldnÕt you have tried to use your goddamn status for once?Ó
ÒFujo, I tried. Really, I did. The gods barely ever decide not to tell the animals things—Ó
ÒAnd it just had to be my son, didnÕt it?Ó Fujo said angrily.
ÒIt was Nafsi they were worried about.Ó
ÒThey had no reason to hide him from me!Ó Fujo yelled. ÒHe couldnÕt do anything to us!Ó
ÒWe didnÕt know how much Uchu knew. She could have had Afriti whispering in her ear the entire time.Ó
ÒOh, bullshit! There was no way he could be—Ó
ÒWho knew what Uchu was told when she was in that pool?Ó Taraju yelled.
ÒWho gives a damn?! She couldnÕt have come here! TheyÕve been holding out on all of us, and for no reason! And you wonÕt tell me anything! This is my family, Ilemi!Ó
ÒYou think I donÕt have problems of my own?!Ó
ÒLike hell you have problems, Mr. Illuminated!Ó
ÒAfriti is coming!Ó screamed Taraju. ÒAfriti is coming, the war is coming, the end of the whole world is coming, and I have to keep that away from my family! Do you think thatÕs easy?!Ó He stopped, breathing heavily, and suddenly realized what he has said. ÒShit,Ó he said quietly. He made a half-hearted attempt at a smile. ÒAnd no you have me cursing, too.Ó
ÒThe war is coming?Ó Fujo said quietly, stunned. ÒNow?Ó
ÒShut up, Fujo. You shouldnÕt have even heard that.Ó
ÒTaraju—Ó
ÒOh, IÕm not ÔIlemiÕ anymore?Ó
Fujo stared at the ground guiltily. ÒI just—Ó
ÒYou just wanted to know,Ó said Taraju bitterly. He sat down. ÒI canÕt tell you anything they donÕt want me to, you know that.Ó
ÒYou just did,Ó said Fujo.
ÒAnd IÕm getting an order of silence. ThatÕll be the first thing they do. And theyÕre right.Ó
Fujo sat down next to his brother. ÒYou know IÕm not mad at you, right?Ó
ÒNow thatÕs a lie.Ó
ÒOkay, maybe a little. But you wonÕt even tell me anything. I have the right to know—Ó
ÒNo, Fujo, you donÕt.Ó
ÒThis is my sonÕs affairs weÕre talking about. And my grandson.Ó
ÒFujo, the gods said you shouldnÕt see Nafsi. They said no one—Ó
ÒTheyÕre wrong. You know something? The last time I saw my son was two days before he died. I wasnÕt even there when he went. And I havenÕt been allowed to see him since. I love Jadi, Taraju. I want to see him. Now.Ó
ÒFujo—Ó
ÒThis isnÕt fair.Ó
Fujo, IÕm under a huge strain. I have secrets I canÕt even tell my own mother. I need to tell someone, anyone, but there isnÕt a single animal, save one of those malaiki and the other Illuminati. They know, so I canÕt tell them. I have to just go through this, all by myself. You call that fair?Ó
ÒYou could tell me.Ó
ÒNo, I canÕt.Ó
ÒI wouldnÕt tell anyone,Ó promised Fujo.
ÒYou would. YouÕd slip.Ó
ÒNow thatÕs trusting.Ó
ÒFujo, please. I just wanted to talk. Laugh. Forget.Ó
ÒIÕm not happy right now, either. Wrong place.Ó
Taraju sighed and stared down at the omniscio Fujo had been using. It showed a group of cubs playing somewhere in the world. It could be anywhere. Omniscios showed anything. An omniscio could even show the past, if it wanted. Unless, of course, the gods decided a place or an animal was wrong to see, such as Nafsi. Nafsi could have been right where Fujo was looking and Fujo would have never seen Nafsi, only the disturbances that Nafsi made.
The omniscio currently stared at a group of cubs playing in a savannah. Another cub sat off the side, her paws and the tip of her tail black, the color change flowing smoothly between her black and her light pelt. She watched the cubs playing.
For some reason known only to her, she decided to try to ask the others if she cold play as well. Taraju could guess the response before it happened: the laughter, vicious, mocking laughter; the taunting; the pushing around, and finally the running away, leaving the cub to cry. Fujo waved a paw over the omniscio before the torment got too far, changing the scene to a huge den Taraju remembered fondly.
ÒEsi again?Ó Taraju asked.
ÒEsi,Ó said Fujo.
ÒWhy do you keep looking at her?Ó
ÒItÕs just a nice reminder of all the things that we could to, but never will,Ó said Fujo bitterly.
Taraju didnÕt argue. HeÕd gone over this topic with Fujo too many times. Taraju realized the logic of the gods; if they intervened, Afriti would more than do the same. The ever-looming war would happen even sooner. But he couldnÕt help but agree with Fujo anyway. They did have the power, they should help. TarajuÕs splitting of his soul hadnÕt done anything to stop his feelings. It was unthinkable for him to be a god. He was simply too eager to use power that the gods had learned long ago should be used carefully.
ÒDo you want to see Nafsi now?Ó Taraju asked as way of apology.
ÒIs that all you came to ask?Ó
ÒNo oneÕs supposed to be allowed in,Ó said Taraju slyly.
ÒYou expect me to believe that you, Mr. Perfect Illuminati Who Is Absolutely Unwilling to Do Anything Wrong wants to sneak me into an un-allowed room?Ó
ÒAlright, if you donÕt want to, IÕll just leave,Ó said Taraju, standing up, feeling the bitter truth of FujoÕs words. There was a time when he could have—would have—done this without a second thought. HeÕd wished more than once for these pure restraints that held him back to be gone, to have even just a touch of immorality to let him act freer. It wasnÕt normal to want that, he knew it. None of the other Illuminati felt that.
ÒTaraju,Ó said Fujo.
ÒYes?Ó
ÒUh . . .Ó
ÒCome on now, IÕm an Illuminati; my time is important.Ó
Fujo laughed. ÒAlright, letÕs—Ó
Fujo was cut off by the sudden appearance of a malaiki. ÒSir!Ó it called, flying toward Taraju.
ÒOh, great,Ó muttered Taraju.
ÒSir!Ó The malaiki landed gracefully. ÒSir, weÕve been looking all over for you. The gods want to see you right away. ItÕs time.Ó
ÒAlready?Ó
ÒYessir. With respect, you were supposed to be easily available.Ó
ÒI know,Ó said Taraju, annoyed. He couldnÕt even see his brother anymore without causing trouble. ÒFujo, look, I didnÕt know—Ó
ÒYeah, yeah, duty calls and al that.Ó Fujo turned moodily back to the omniscio and lied down, continually changing the image.
Taraju stared at him sadly. There really was no reason for him to be excluded from his family like this. ÒSir—Ó
ÒPatience, malaiki.Ó
ÒYes, sir.Ó
Taraju went to Fujo and placed a paw on the back of his neck. ÒFujo, IÕll be back to take you. I promise.Ó
ÒYeah, uh-huh.Ó Fujo continued to stare at the looking-pool.
Taraju sighed and made for the rectangle the malaiki opened. ÒLetÕs go,Ó he said.
Taraju stopped as he heard, ÒMake it fast. He turned around. Fujo hadnÕt moved, but the pictures in the omniscio had stopped changing places.
Taraju smiled. ÒDeal.Ó He turned and walked through the rectangle.
Malaiki were lined up in two rows, making a path and sitting perfectly still. It was an impressive sight. The lines went for quite a while. It was obvious that every malaiki had been turned out for the event. It looked as if even Purgatory had been emptied of them.
The gods stood at one end of the line, waiting with the Illuminati. There were only twenty-six Illuminati, twenty-six pure souls after centuries of life. But the twenty-seventh was missing. The twenty-six knew it.
ÒHe should have been here,Ó muttered Raylo. The hyena shook his head.
ÒManoÕs going to throw a fit,Ó the leopard Fayzana observed.
ÒHave any of you actually seen Mano here?Ó asked Shani, a wildebeest.
They turned to look over the gods. No, Mano wasnÕt there, or, oddly enough, Aiheu. Oh, wait, there they were, just now arriving.
Mano looked toward Aiheu. ÒFather—Ó
ÒNot another word,Ó said Aiheu sternly. ÒThey are family.Ó
Taraju emerged behind the group. ÒSorry,Ó he apologized, the Illuminati turning to see him.
ÒWe were worried you wouldnÕt show,Ó said the margay Ilet.
ÒOr worse, youÕd pop up in the middle,Ó said Fayzana.
ÒYes, that would be embarrassing,Ó admitted Taraju.
ÒIlemi.Ó
Taraju stiffened. He knew that voice. He also knew the owner of the voice never called him that unless it was something important. He turned around to see FelaÕs face. The tigressÕs face was unreadable. ÒMaÕam?Ó
ÒYou were late.Ó
ÒMaÕam, I can explain. I was visiting—Ó
ÒI could care less what kept you,Ó she said with a smile. ÒBut youÕre supposed to be greeting Afriti.Ó
ÒGreeting?Ó
ÒItÕs very simple. Just say something like ÔWelcome to Heaven.Õ In more words, obviously.Ó
ÒI didnÕt hear—Ó
ÒBecause IÕm telling you now. Now get out front, and donÕt screw up. Act.Ó
Taraju jumped at the command that had been drilled into him as a cub. He began to walk out in front of the gods before his brain actually told his legs to consciously. He ended up in front of the gods, almost perfectly centered.
ÒUh, did anyone tell him about Afriti?Ó whispered Raylo.
ÒWhat, you mean he doesnÕt know—Ó hissed Fela. She was cut off by a stern look from Aiheu. He wasnÕt in a good mood. Fela shook her head as she walked back to her spot. This would be a disaster. And in front of everyone, too.
Poor Taraju.
The procession was finally visible in the distance, a speck coming closer through the two lines of malaiki. Taraju stiffened, wishing he could be as utterly still as a malaiki. He knew how Afriti was coming here; by the stretch f land connecting Heaven and Hell, one of only two existing. It stretched from the savannah of heaven to a barren wasteland, and into a savannah even richer than HeavenÕs. Afriti spared nothing when it came to proving Hell was superior.
The procession came close enough to make out. In the front, with a lioness by his side, was a large, muscular lion. He might have been smaller than the malaiki, nearly every creature was, but the strength he seemed to exude was obvious. If he were to challenge any malaiki, it was more than obvious who would triumph. His pitch-black mane was large, proudly flowing across his neck. His muscular body effortlessly left deep paw-prints in the ground as he came closer to the gods, his eyes clearly blazing with hatred.
Taraju
swallowed nervously. It seemed that the war came closer with each step the lion
took, as if he was bringing it with him. Despair seemed to fill Taraju; how
could anyone stand up to this monster?
The
procession stopped roughly two feet away from Taraju. Taraju bowed his head to
the lion and said, with all the respect he could muster, ÒAfriti, we welcome
you to Heaven. We hope that you will be pleased with our services.Ó
He brought his eyes up to look at Afriti. The lionÕs face was filled with obvious disgust for Taraju. TarajuÕs attention was suddenly turned to the lioness beside the lion.
She said coldly, ÒI am Afriti.Ó
Taraju looked at her in surprise. ÒI beg your pardon, maÕam. My humblest apologies. I had no idea—Ó
ÒI wouldnÕt expect an Illuminati to know how to walk and talk at the same time.Ó Her icy tones chilled TarajuÕs heart. Her hatred was outright and obvious. Her dark eyes didnÕt possess the same anger as the lion next to her; it was well-hidden. She was a liar, a deceiver, a manipulator. But she could convey more than enough contempt for her victim when ever she pleased, as she did now.
Taraju bowed his head to her. ÒIÕm sorry, maÕam. Forgive me.Ó
Aiheu appeared by TarajuÕs side. ÒWelcome home, Afriti.Ó
There may have been worse things to say, but Taraju thought that might have been pretty high on the list. Afriti said with barely suppressed rage, ÒThis was never my home.Ó
There was silence. Aiheu said, ÒNot all of you have returned.Ó
ÒI vowed never to set paw in this land until it was mine,Ó said Afriti, her tone all ice again. ÒDo you think I, or any of the others, wanted to return to you?Ó AiheuÕs pain didnÕt show. ÒNow, where is Nafsi?Ó
ÒWe . . . have him in a room by himself, under a malaiki guard.Ó
ÒI demand an equal number of my guard in there.Ó
ÒMaÕam,Ó said Taraju, Òthe malaiki are quite capa—Ó
ÒQuiet, Taraju,Ó commanded Aiheu. He turned back to Afriti. ÒOf course.Ó
ÒI want to see him,Ó insisted Afriti.
ÒIn good time.Ó
ÒNow.Ó
ÒYour guard shall be posted immediately. That will have to do.Ó
ÒHow am I supposed to know what you are doing to him in there?Ó
ÒI assume your guard can communicate mentally like the malaiki. As for what we are doing to him, he is simply being confined for safety.Ó
ÒWhose?Ó asked Afriti bitingly.
ÒOurs.Ó
AfritiÕs surprise showed only for a moment before she said, ÒVery well. I want my guard posted now.Ó
ÒTaraju,Ó said Aiheu.
ÒYes, sir.Ó
ÒTake a guard to Nafsi.Ó
ÒYes, sir.Ó Taraju watched as Afriti turned to her party and nodded to one of the animals behind her. There were several in the party, and Taraju had never seen one before. They somewhat resembled malaiki, but they didnÕt have mixed body parts as the malaiki did. They were all smooth black fur, four of them being slightly tinted with red. Their bodies shared the same muscular form as the malaiki, and if anything they were more built. Their faces were very much like a lionÕs or a tigers in the fact that they had a large jaw, but they had no lionÕs mane. Their claws were extended, but Taraju suspected they might not be extended at all; that might be their actual length. Who knew what would be revealed when they were truly angry? They seemed to be meant only for one thing: to kill, to cause pain, grief, and misery.
The shetani that Afriti nodded to, a red-tinged one, said in a voice that frightened Taraju with its low, guttural viciousness, ÒYes, my queen.Ó Taraju opened up a rectangle to NafsiÕs room and led the guard through it.
Aiheu said after Taraju had disappeared, ÒYou must be tired from the journey. We can offer you a place to stay if you wish.Ó
ÒYour delays are only prolonging the inevitable,Ó said Afriti.
Aiheu said, slight effort being noted in his voice, ÒWill you accept the offer?Ó
Afriti turned to the animals behind her, who gave general assent. She turned back to Aiheu. ÒVery well. But we do not expect to stay here any longer than necessary.Ó
Aiheu looked away before he said, ÒOf course.Ó He turned his back to Afriti as he turned toward the Illuminati. ÒMarim?Ó
ÒYes, sir,Ó a red-maned lion responded.
ÒShow Afriti to a place you believe suitable.Ó
ÒYes, sir. MaÕam, if you and the others would kindly follow me.Ó Marim turned, Afriti and her group following him. They all proceeded through a rectangle to another part of Heaven.
When the rectangle closed, Aiheu said softly, ÒYou are dismissed.Ó Malaiki vanished through rectangles, going back to their duties. The gods began to file through rectangles, going back to their meeting place. Aiheu continued to stare at the savannah, even after all the animals in his vision had gone.
RohÕkash went to his side. ÒAiheu?Ó the hyena asked softly in her gravelly voice.
ÒShe hates me, doesnÕt she?Ó He looked down at RohÕkash. ÒShe really does hate me, doesnÕt she?Ó
ÒYou knew that.Ó
ÒI didnÕt want to believe it.Ó
ÒNone of us did.Ó
ÒI love her, RohÕkash. And sheÕll never love me. SheÕll never love anyone but herself. I just wanted to believe that she was pretending, but after centuries . . . It hurts, RohÕkash.Ó
ÒI canÕt know what youÕre going though. My mate stayed.Ó
ÒAnd you were one of the luckiest of us. I lost her, I lost Mwovu . . . I only have Mano.Ó
ÒAiheu . . .Ó RohÕkash paused, picking her words carefully. ÒIt may hurt. But we canÕt have you thinking about her. ThereÕs nothing you can do to get her back, or Mwovu. We all want them back; Heaven was a much happier place with them. But you canÕt keep hoping to get her back. ThatÕs a very mortal flaw you have, your wish to please her, and she knows itÕs there. Please, just thing before you do anything. YouÕre affecting all of us.Ó
Aiheu stared blankly out into the savannah. RohÕkash turned to follow after the other gods, then stopped to see if Aiheu was following. ÒArenÕt you coming?Ó
ÒI want to take a walk,Ó he said. ÒI wonÕt be gone long.Ó
RohÕkash watched as the lion walked into the savannah. He didnÕt return until night.